A Drug Dealing Christian⁉️

I want to talk about something kind of personal.  I would like to know how other “street dudes” feel about God? I love God. I have read the whole Bible maybe 3x but I know what I do is wrong also. It’s sad to feel like the streets is my only option to make money but that’s my reality. I didn’t graduate because I was home taking care of bills & my family at such a young age. I know it’s never too late & all that, but this is what it is right now.

I hate talking about God and going to church because of the way they look at me & judge me.  It seems like Christians in the church judge you worse than the police do. I want to know how people feel about drug dealers & how drug dealers feel about God? Like Tupac said, is there a heaven for the thugs?