I Hate To Say That He Has To Chose

My husband and I have been together for 6 years.  We have 2 kids and one on the way.  Now I already know this may sound messed up to a lot of women, but this is my reality and I just want to see if there is anybody out there who feels like me.

Anyway, we have been together for 6 years and about 2 years ago he cheated on me and had a baby out of the affair.  His daughter just turned one a couple months ago, & I hate to say it but I hate that little girl.  She is just a constant reminder that he cheated on me.  Every time I see that little girl that is all I can think about (and she is so beautiful).  It just messed up because we have 2 boys and like I said again, I’m pregnant with another boy.  I want a daughter.  I swear it is so unfair.

I did decide to take him back because I was raised that no matter what you stick with your husband.  But I am not accepting that little girl.  No way!  Now I do make sure he pays his child support but he cannot spend any time with her because I can’t trust him around that child’s mother.  I know a lot of people tell me I am wrong, but he can either have that child or he can be with me and our 3 kids.  Yes, I said it… he has to choose, it us or that little girl!